Finally Graduate

Well....just to announce, I'm finally graduated!! haha...
this is a graduation that I had been waiting for 1 year, but I do make myself full in this 1 year instead of just letting it pass by...at least, in this 1 year, i had a lot of sweet memory in uni life with some of the juniors, i spend some time on some back packing experience, and most important I encounter GOD's grace a lot in these time...

Many people ask me, " so what your feeling for finally graduated ?"...be frankly, nothing much feeling...one true thing that i felt glad, is that all my family members came to witness this glorious moment of me, except Ocean that is still in China. The only in my family that most of them are together. And of course, many juniors in church and CF that came as well.

Graduate is just a transformation, graduation is just a symbolize or ceremony. But, it is a very important process of transformation from a student to a worker, it open up a very new chapter of life. A journey of self development toward a true masculinity, that able to give protection and security to people you love and care, in term of finance, spiritual, mentality, and whole being. 

So, I am just....graduated!!

Lost

Lost

In darkness, I'm searching,
for a path to lead to eternity.
There is never an easy task,
to grab on anything,
yet knowing what it might be.

The path is clear,
when the mind is clear;
the mind is clear,
when the source of eternity
is sustaining.
But, I'm lost when I'm aware.

Oh, temptation the poison Ivy,
attractive and captivating,
how many souls had become refugee,
losing their wills and freedom,
fall in awareness of self condemn.

I'm still lost,
although I know the way.
What I know,
my body against it;
What my will against it,
my body do it.
I'm lost in a self paradox,
to do, or not to do.

If there is any way,
there must be someone there,
hold me up and hold me back.
and she,
might just needing someone as well,
to search together,
when 2 lost meet, it become found.

Lost

Lost

In darkness, I'm searching,
for a path to lead to eternity.
There is never an easy task,
to grab on anything,
yet knowing what it might be.

The path is clear,
when the mind is clear;
the mind is clear,
when the source of eternity
is sustaining.
But, I'm lost when I'm aware.

Oh, temptation the poison Ivy,
attractive and captivating,
how many souls had become refugee,
losing their wills and freedom,
fall in awareness of self condemn.

I'm still lost,
although I know the way.
What I know,
my body against it;
What my will against it,
my body do it.
I'm lost in a self paradox,
to do, or not to do.

If there is any way,
there must be someone there,
hold me up and hold me back.
and she,
might just needing someone as well,
to search together,
when 2 lost meet, it become found.

遗忘

遗忘

还记得吗

他们婚礼的那天
我牵着你的手  听你说着对婚姻的憧憬
然后紧握着你，我说
执子之手， 与子偕老

遗忘了吗
看着台湾的偶像剧
躺卧在我胸膛   你说有闻到幸福的味道
然后紧抱着我， 你说
我们要幸福， 永远幸福


我们怎么了
把过去的美好都遗忘了
像流星划过   消失在眼前
再也找不回过去的画面

画面模糊了
偶尔想起某些事，某些人
当时间流过  你我识曾相识
历史终究还是被遗忘的故事

在职场建立归属感

    有种心动， 是时间无法磨灭， 大水无法摧毁的。

    以前， 还没正式工作时，总觉得很奇怪， 很多信徒都在现实社会的考验下， 事奉的心都会渐渐冷淡， 职场社会真的这么冷吗？带着火热的心进入职场， 总相信神会亲自保守， 让这赤子之心继续燃烧，为祂燃烧。
    我深知道， 要保守这颗心， 就一定要回到教会，会到神的圣坐宝座前来事奉。 所以， 还没开工就已经找好了教会， 而且神也为我安排了一对主内夫妇接待我到他们家居住。 这样的安排， 非常的奇妙， 甚至超乎我的想象。 至少， 在这个新的环境里， 属灵的生命仍然在家庭与教会中不断被栽培， 接下来就只剩下职场了。

 

    每天， 我都把我的工作，还有工作的环境交托在主的手中。 第一个月， 其实没有看到很大的效果， 甚至会怀疑真的能在职场也找到属灵归属的角落吗？ 第二个月， 偶然的认识了另一位刚进公司的弟兄， 而且还是他主动找上了我。 他其实比我迟进公司一个星期， 不过一直没见过我， 还以为我比他迟进 （我其实去了北京旅游。。。^^）。
    前几天， 不以为然的和这弟兄聊起， 原来他也是很有热心的， 而且也知道公司里也有一些弟兄姐妹。 突然， 我有一种想法， 想说不然我们就在公司里开始一个小小的团契。 这弟兄也有同样的想法。 然后， 我们就把这件事放在祷告中。 如果神允许， 祂也一定会感动公司的人事部允许我们使用放工的时间在公司的会议室里聚会， 然后慢慢的增加我们的人数。 我们计划这段时间， 先好好祷告， 让祷告成为我们公司团契的基础， 然后再慢慢寻找公司里的弟兄姐妹， 希望十月或十一月可以开始这样的团契 。 我心想， 如果公司里也有属灵归属的角落， 那是多么其妙的一件事啊！！ 想到这里， 心里油然一笑。。。。。
    请大家， 也帮我把这件事放在祷告中， 好吗？

# 在人所不能的是， 在神凡事都能！

Passing the Ball

There a work philosophy I learn from my boss today.

When people pass the ball to you, you must learn to pass the ball to others. If you keep the ball at your side without passing, people will look for ball and they come to you. Then you have to place to hide.

Who throw the ball, he should hold back his ball; if he throw his ball at you or you found his ball, then pass the ball to his boss, so that his boss know he throw away the ball.....

interesting philosophy, right?

in Christianity, do we learn to pass the ball around as well??

宅了。。。。

真的很不想承认， 但在这里一个月的时间了， 我好像也宅了。
生活圈子越来越小， 工作回到家就躲在家，不出门了。

在我的职场里， 同一个部门的， 都没有同年龄层的人，与其它部门的人也没什么机会交流。 所以， 真的有点难在这里找一些知心的同伴。。。
教会呢？ 也是一样， 好像不见了80 后的一代， 只有80前和90后的。青年人真的太少了。  是有些失望的。

现在， 回到家。 有时真的很想出来喝茶聊天， 可是就是找不到kaki， 所以只好上网， 看戏， 聊天， 名符其实的宅男生活！！！ 原来我也有这样的一天啊。。。。可悲。。。

还好， 现在开始参与了少年团的服事。 也开始教少年人弹吉它。 虽然， 我不是很厉害啦， 但是能把我所会的教会他们， 让他们以后也能参与教会的服事， 我就很满意了。 求主悦纳我仅有的这点小技巧， 能够荣耀他。

开始， 有点想念团契的日子了。。有很多小瓜在身边。。。每晚都有kaki 去喝茶聊天。。。团契的服事虽然累， 但总是很满足喜乐； 相反的现在是有事奉的热情， 却好像没有同工分享的喜乐。。。。

主， 能够让教会有更多的青年人吗？？